In Matthew, Jesus said that if we have the faith even as small as a mustard seed, a mountain will move. He isn't asking for complete faith. He isn't asking for the world. Just a tiny bit of faith. Just an outstretched hand. The smallest inclination of trust.
Oh my darling, how loved you are. When I first saw that faint little pink line on the pregnancy test, I truly couldn’t comprehend it. I tested about a million times more in the following days, each time being more and more in awe.
From mommy: Hiya little bee. Are you cold right now? You definitely are! Right now, if everything went as well as we think, you are sitting in a freezer in New York. I went through lots and lots of needles, lots of pills, a trip across the country, and a minor "surgery" for you. You … Continue reading 12 February 2018
Hi little Honeybee, I know it’s been a bit. Don’t worry, little love, my desire for you has never wavered. It all has been hard to think about while I’ve been laying in wait. It’s even harder to think about when we are so close to making you. Any day now we should be starting … Continue reading 09 January 2018
I'm going crazy with the anticipation and anxiety here. IVF is quickly approaching. We have an appointment next week with the OBGYN that will be doing my monitoring, and an appointment next month with the RE to go over meds, etc, and then we will start the stim process with my first cycle in 2018! … Continue reading Stir Crazy in the Wait!
Hi my little Bumblebee, It’s been a while.
#InfertilityIs Share with me how you define infertility.
Infertility is really hard. It’s also pretty lonely. Through this process, I have been really outspoken. I’ve posted things on social media. I’ve never left it out of conversation, and I am blatant about our struggles when people ask questions. I’ve made a lot of friends that way. People have reached out to me to say “me too.” I have a network now. Different infertility diseases, different points in the process, different religions, different ideas. But we all are infertile.
Baby Bee,Oh my dear. I love you, so much. I love you so much it hurts. You don’t even exist yet, but I love you. My dear bumblebee, are you lost? I think about you every single day. I think about your laugh. I imagine what it will sound like. Will it be deep and … Continue reading 14 March 2017
Someone said insanity is doing something more than once and expecting a different result. So why am I trying a 33rd time?